paxislandsystem

---Poem by Madison, July 10th, 2025---

There's a pit just outside the door
In it lies every possible instance of regret
Every big mistake you've ever made.
Every what-if scenario and bad coping mechanism
Every instance of shame that replaces reflection.

In each person's eyes lies a mirror to your insecurities
Every big mistake you've ever made
Every possible way that it was your fault, even if it's not that easy
Every way you wonder how five years passed that fast
Everything you can find to prove you're just that bad.

The floor stays in place
It usually has.
There's a pit just outside your door.
It has every advance you're afraid of
You've been hurt in the past
If you try to connect with someone, you'll return the favor

So just let it pass.
That was your only chance, and you fell out of favor.

And here you go minimizing your bad behavior
An urge to gain sympathy even when it isn't warranted.
There's a pit outside your door and you already fell in
The last thing you deserve is a fucking savior
That was your second chance, and you didn't pass.